My sister is losing her baby today. She is 9 weeks pregnant but the baby has no heartbeat and this baby will not grow before our eyes, but in Heaven instead. My stepsister delivered her son as a 24-week preemie on February 3rd. He lived until February 8th.
We are all grieving. Devastasted. Lonely for babies we thought would fill our arms in just a few short months.
As I pray for my sisters, think of them, talk to them, I wish there was something I could do. I wish I could make this not be happening. I wish I could make it all go away. I can't, so then I wish I could heal their hurt. I wish I could bear some of it for them.
And for the first time it occurs to me that our Jesus went to the cross in part to ease our pain. He didn't want to suffer and die, but he did want to take away our sins. I think it's safe to assume that as he did suffer, his perfect love for us meant that he was more than just willing. I think he ached to provide a solution for us.
There's nothing I can do to take away my sisters' pain, but I am so thankful that we serve a Savior who loves us enough to take it all on his very back so that we can live.
Crying. Oh Emily, it's so true. All we want to do is help make their pain better, but we can't because God already did it for us. So thankful for a Sovereign Lord who brings us hope through sorrow...even when the sorrow is so consuming.
ReplyDeleteYou said it beautifully - thank you for reminding us. Grieving with you at the loss of two precious babes...if only all the babies could have such loving families.
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ReplyDeleteMatt Redman wrote this song when his wife had a miscarriage
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know you are near
And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?
(Chorus:)
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me
And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth
(Chorus)
Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You