8:52 am I really, really want some cereal with sugar. It was a long night last night. A neighbor had a DJ yelling into a microphone until after 11:30, and shortly after that stopped Canaan woke up. He was feverish so I gave him some Motrin and brought him to bed with me, where he tossed and turned and nursed all night long. I didn't get out of bed until 8:20 this morning. Surely some very sweet cereal would fix my mood, right? Ha!
10:17 am I'm making bean, green chiles, cheddar cheese omelettes for breakfast. I had a thought - ooh, ice cream! I'll get some ice cream - oh, wait - no. I feel like I'm thinking about sugar double-time today since I can't have it, but maybe I actually think about it this much normally?
10:25 am Maaan, I really want some hot tea. We don't even have any tea bags. I checked the mango in the freezer to see if it has sugar - it doesn't! YES!
12:35 pm I had an orange with breakfast too, and it was very sweet but didn't satisfy my sweet tooth. I feel like Eve in the garden - God has given me so many wonderfully delicious and nutritious foods to eat and I am fixating on what is destructive. I remember the first year we did a tv-turnoff for the month of August, I kept a journal. The first few days were so awfully hard for me that I wrote in that journal quite a lot. Then we got into a new routine and it just wasn't that big a deal. I hope the same happens with this sugar fast.
1:32 pm Ate two boiled eggs for lunch. Also tried a little experiment - plain (no sugar) yogurt with 100% grape juice mixed in as a sweetener. Not so good. REALLY could go for a big bowl of cereal with lots of sugar.
Monday 9:07 am Sugar wins. I did not survive my sugar fast. I was outwitted, outplayed, outlasted. It started when Alif left for a few minutes and I scarfed down a bowl of cereal with sugar. When he came home I told him I went off my sugar fast and he said, "at least you made it half a day!" Then I ate sour gummy worms, which we bought at the gas station while buying a newspaper, and then that night I drank a Strawberry Fanta with my fast-food dinner and also had not one but TWO root beer floats after dinner. Sigh. We'll try again next week.
I think part of the problem is that yesterday was a long, boring, slow day. We couldn't go to church in the morning and so that threw things off, and then the rest of the day was just spent puttering around doing nothing. Not a good day for a sugar fast. I think I will pick the busiest day of this next week and do it then.